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[hardhearted]

You say that, you say you'd have gone years ago yet you were unable to fuckin' kill him here. Why? He's the enemy, he took everything from us, and you-- just fucking let him walk. You sided with him here.

[ and dean can't understand that. not one bit. instead it reeks of betrayal he hadn't seen coming, not after tonight, and it's just like sam. all happening again where he's the fool being played by those few he still loves. and all because he'd finally decided to let them in.

god, he hates himself. ]

Save your fuckin' crap, I don't wanna hear it.

[ dean's shoving past cas then, stepping out of the room in a flurry of anger. if he stays, he'll hurt him, he knows. and this time for good, further than just cutting his breathing with a hand to the neck. so he leaves, despite how much he wants to do exactly that right now.

but not without a pause. ]

You're not living here any longer.

[ get out. ]

[indecadence]

[ He opens his mouth to protest, again, but it feels useless in the scheme of things--much like him. This was supposed to benefit all of them. Supposed to, supposed to. Instead, Castiel turns his head at the order, jaw clenched and fingers squeezed tight against his side. The tension only continues to build long after Dean's decided to leave him, and the emptiness of the room suddenly slams into through his chest. He hasn't known loneliness like this, even when he'd fallen.

Despite them being so estranged, at least he'd had a part to play. A role to fill. After this? He doesn't belong anywhere.

Castiel turns to look at the bed for a long while, simply standing unmoving in the center of the place without a thought in his head. His eyes burn, but nothing comes, dragging himself up the longer he waits there in the silence. It eats at him, slowly. Yet, he refuses to surrender, to give in and be beaten down for doing what he'd felt right at the time. He won't give up, won't let Dean think he'd ever choose the angels over him. Not like that.

He's not there when Dean decides to return, nothing of his presence left there save for the jacket he'd taken off at the beginning. Castiel has a plan, and he needs to throw it into motion as soon as he can. ]