Did you want me to? [ he's just going to turn this right back around on you, cas. never mind how close the other man is, how he dares to step forward like that when dean's handed people their asses for much less. it's a valid question, the one cas asks, but dean is no mood to give him an answer. not now, not ever. ] If you're lookin' to off yourself, you've been on a steady road to that destinations for years.
[ but then cas is saying words of loyalty that would have crushed dean some years ago. they tug at him even now, and he hates castiel for a minute, wonders what the hell is wrong with him, why he'd follow dean to certain death over a mission dean knows castiel has his own disagreements over. in the beginning, it had been this friendship and loyalty that dean had come to count on the most, to cherish only second to his bond with sam...
but just like when his brother had said yes, had burned away thanks to lucifer, so had dean's bond with cas. or at least, that's what he's told himself over the years, that in the end, there would be nothing left of who they had once been, which would make sacrificing his one friend easier.
yet even knowing that, cas still stands by the words he's always said to him and dean hates it. ]
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Date: 2013-09-23 07:05 pm (UTC)[ but then cas is saying words of loyalty that would have crushed dean some years ago. they tug at him even now, and he hates castiel for a minute, wonders what the hell is wrong with him, why he'd follow dean to certain death over a mission dean knows castiel has his own disagreements over. in the beginning, it had been this friendship and loyalty that dean had come to count on the most, to cherish only second to his bond with sam...
but just like when his brother had said yes, had burned away thanks to lucifer, so had dean's bond with cas. or at least, that's what he's told himself over the years, that in the end, there would be nothing left of who they had once been, which would make sacrificing his one friend easier.
yet even knowing that, cas still stands by the words he's always said to him and dean hates it. ]
Then you're a goddamn fool.