[ No, he didn't make the right choices. Sam was still stuck in Hell, still stuck with Lucifer and Michael and their younger brother. It wasn't the right choice but Sam's-- well. He made it out. It was fucked six ways from sunday, but he got Sam back and--
Dean recoils visibly, stiffening up. This other Dean might not know what he's had to do - that he let Sam do the trials, that he's sick, close to dying, but it's true. They're doomed to fuck them up, just in different ways.
He swallows harshly and forces a smile, no humor in it. ]
Doesn't change I'm doing better than you. At least I won't lead them to get ground into meat 'cause I can't cope with what I let our brother become.
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[ No, he didn't make the right choices. Sam was still stuck in Hell, still stuck with Lucifer and Michael and their younger brother. It wasn't the right choice but Sam's-- well. He made it out. It was fucked six ways from sunday, but he got Sam back and--
Dean recoils visibly, stiffening up. This other Dean might not know what he's had to do - that he let Sam do the trials, that he's sick, close to dying, but it's true. They're doomed to fuck them up, just in different ways.
He swallows harshly and forces a smile, no humor in it. ]
Doesn't change I'm doing better than you. At least I won't lead them to get ground into meat 'cause I can't cope with what I let our brother become.