[ It's a hollow confession because it's like he's lying to Dean and himself all at once. Knowing what he knows and not saying it-- Castiel doesn't believe he has it in him to ruin this moment. Perhaps he could convince himself to do it later, to explain later just how untrue everything is. An uncontrolled shiver runs down his spine, and when he breathes, he can smell the liquor.
He's drunk. And this is bad. So, so bad. ]
Do you really believe it's good like this?
[ Castiel's pulled back to say it, grabbing onto Dean to keep himself steady and the room from spinning. He tips forward then and just clutches at him, rests their foreheads together like he had after they'd fought with each other. It's very grounding and maybe a little uncomfortable. ] Do you... believe we're good like this?
[ Hot and cold. Close and distanced. Everything they shouldn't be. ]
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Date: 2014-03-09 07:49 am (UTC)[ It's a hollow confession because it's like he's lying to Dean and himself all at once. Knowing what he knows and not saying it-- Castiel doesn't believe he has it in him to ruin this moment. Perhaps he could convince himself to do it later, to explain later just how untrue everything is. An uncontrolled shiver runs down his spine, and when he breathes, he can smell the liquor.
He's drunk. And this is bad. So, so bad. ]
Do you really believe it's good like this?
[ Castiel's pulled back to say it, grabbing onto Dean to keep himself steady and the room from spinning. He tips forward then and just clutches at him, rests their foreheads together like he had after they'd fought with each other. It's very grounding and maybe a little uncomfortable. ] Do you... believe we're good like this?
[ Hot and cold. Close and distanced. Everything they shouldn't be. ]