[ it's such a hard thing to accept. to realize that he needs to trust sam, believe in him to make the right choice and that's it. it's easier to control those around him, it gets shit done be it through threats and fear or not.
but sam's never responded well to those, and dean... he can't afford to be the one to drive sam away again. what little meaning there is in anything these days would be lost if he did.
a hand comes to the side of cas' neck, lightly touching when the other man leans closer, forehead pressing against dean's. there's a moment of stillness, where being as they are is entirely acceptable. but it is a mere moment, nothing more, and then dean is pushing up. being a stubborn ass like always, then, he almost huffs a breath in response, but instead he.... you know, tilts cas right off him. ]
I said don't.
[ he doesn't deserve an apology, so don't give him one.
also he's just going to get up either by pushing until cas moves or whatever, right until he's back on his feet and brushing off the dust and dirt of the ground from his clothes. ]
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but sam's never responded well to those, and dean... he can't afford to be the one to drive sam away again. what little meaning there is in anything these days would be lost if he did.
a hand comes to the side of cas' neck, lightly touching when the other man leans closer, forehead pressing against dean's. there's a moment of stillness, where being as they are is entirely acceptable. but it is a mere moment, nothing more, and then dean is pushing up. being a stubborn ass like always, then, he almost huffs a breath in response, but instead he.... you know, tilts cas right off him. ]
I said don't.
[ he doesn't deserve an apology, so don't give him one.
also he's just going to get up either by pushing until cas moves or whatever, right until he's back on his feet and brushing off the dust and dirt of the ground from his clothes. ]