[ the touch stills him some more, enough for dean to almost hold his breath like he's expecting cas to do the very thing he's thinking. maybe a part of him wants him to. an eye for an eye, after all, dean had been the one to get cas killed before.
it'd be so fucking fitting. it's why his hand relaxes around cas' wrist, allowing. ]
I can't. [ he breathes the words quietly. ]
What if he still chooses Lucifer-- I'll have done it all again. It'll be just like before. There's no winning--
[ giving him space, a choice doesn't sound great to dean when he fears sam will still make the wrong one, no matter what dean does or doesn't do. how can he just be knowing sam might do so? ]
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Date: 2014-02-25 12:48 am (UTC)it'd be so fucking fitting. it's why his hand relaxes around cas' wrist, allowing. ]
I can't. [ he breathes the words quietly. ]
What if he still chooses Lucifer-- I'll have done it all again. It'll be just like before. There's no winning--
[ giving him space, a choice doesn't sound great to dean when he fears sam will still make the wrong one, no matter what dean does or doesn't do. how can he just be knowing sam might do so? ]